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I see you staring Its very obvious you are looking Gazing at the purple and black spot on my arm I can tell you want to say something. What? There's help? I don't have to allow the bruises? You think you know my situation. But what you don't know Is that this isn't a strike from a partner This is from my own mother After I made her mad I made her wish I wasn't home. Now quit staring You can't do anything The only think you have accomplished Is making me feel uncomfortable Making me relive the pain So please Stop staring

You have always been beautiful. Looking back on old photos You were beautiful as a child You were beautiful all through school Now you have become another Girl who thinks she is fat When she is beautiful and healthy You are beautiful and I have always thought that Ever since I met you that day last summer Now I see you starving yourself And I wish that I could show you However, you won't listen. So I watch you count your calories, hate yourself for splurging, fret over weigh ins, and barely eat. I wish you would see your beauty But until then, I just remind you and support you

Laying in my bed I yearn for another body next to me I miss cuddling someone Then you come in And my bed is filled with warmth Like sleeping next to the fireplace On Christmas Eve You fit perfectly In the space that is empty Your steady breathing becomes A lullaby for me My perfectly little spoon What would I do without you? I wish that you would join me every day But alas, You are not faithful every night You spend your time Split between my bed and another's. Come back to warm by bed Bella I miss you and your snuggles I love you sweetheart

You aren't who I thought you were We used to want to spend all we could together. Then he got in the equation. I love you. You are my best friend. Can't you see? He is sucking all your time away I miss my best friend The one who always promised She would be there for me No matter what. Well here I am. Almost broken And practically friendless. That promise has been broken Because of some guy. Now don't get me wrong I am happy that you are happy But he makes you lose who you are You were never like this Now all I am left with Is some sort of ghost of what we were.

I wish I could just see you all Even just for one day. I miss the crazy times we have The fun And the laughs we share. While I am down here I don't have that. I have a friend who would Rather see her boyfriend that See her best friend if 11 years My other best friend is a thousand miles away The only safehouse I have from boredom Is my girlfriend. Even then, I feel like I am Placing a burden on her. I just want to be back Where I can be free Where I can see my friends Where I don't feel so alone.

You think I am fat and ugly. You spit this venom while I am weak A glancing blow So I sink Deeper And Deeper You have this carefree life You walk on clouds Above everyone else You think you are better than others But for someone who lives below You just killed her. I want to tell you That I can't take these attacks That one more and I Might not recover so easily. I just want to live Whether that means Barely getting by Or with my head above the waves Please stop Because every time you hurt me I get pulled under again

I've always loved love songs They allow me to wish for the future But lately They don't do it justice Keith Urban can't write A country song that would suffice Angel and Collins couldn't sing A gay love song Truer than our love And Glee couldn't cover a song That could express how I feel about you Now they just fall flat. Just something to sing in the car On the way to wherever. I wish I could write you a song To tell you how beautiful I think you are How much You mean to me And how my life has changed Since you have been In my life But I can't So I am writing this poem for you Though It will never be suffici

I wish you knew That in my heart There is a space Reserved only for you I wish you knew That I still feel Butterflies Even days after you kiss me I wish you knew That when you get depressed I want to be there Even just to hold you I wish you knew That I will love you Whether we are in the same city Or thousands of miles apart I wish you knew That everytime I see you I fall for you Even harder I wish you knew That I want to just steal you away And just be with you Forever I wish you knew That leaving you is one of the hardest things to do. I wish you knew That my heart Just wants to scream "I LOVE YOU" I

 Stubborn, correct, persistent. These are some features of me. But, if you look deeper into my soul then you see my family. My big fat German family. We always have to be right. We always fight for the last slice of cake in the fridge. We share everything, well, when it comes to sickness.   That's about it. We stand for what we believe in.   Even if we're standing alone on the other side of the bridge. In the middle of the night we sneak down to get a snack and catch someone else up as well. We're not a fan of ducks my Grandma shoots them. We are very loud.   Everyone can tell when all the Gates are in town. We're

Thank you for the friendships Thank you for the relationships Thank you for the fights Thank you for the successes Thank you for the drama Thank you for the hatred Thank you for the failures Thank you for the fake people Thank you for helping me realize who I am Most of all, Thank you for making it so easy to say good bye